The goodness of the lord! Pouring out my heart.

I have not post on my blog in years but hear we go. My father was in a hit and run car wreck which took his life. His brain stem was damaged and he went into a coma 3-4 hours later. The pain in my heart was so heavy I felt lost. The only man that will ever truly love me, my protector is gone. My immature way of thinking feeling like a child when my father was around is gone. His burden is now mine because now my mother is lost and all the things my father did is now on my brother and my shoulders. Two months before his death I dreamed about him passing on. I would wake up crying asking God not to take him I can't make it without my father. I brushed it off and took the dream as just that a dream. Three weeks before he died I ask my father, "if something happen to him and he ended up in a coma what would he want us to do." He replied by saying, " pull the plug I would not want to live like that." Not even know that's exactly what we had to do. Before he died my parents took a long two week trip to Ohio and visit family and friends. Before my father went into a coma I told him to, "calm down and I love you, dad do you hear me I love you. You will be okay." He told me he love me too. After he died my heart hurt so bad as if somebody was squeezing the life out of me. I called my friend in Georgia to tell her my dad was in a coma and she said, "My sister woke-up and said somebody told her in a sleep to tell me that my father is okay and not to worry." At this point I took it as if he may live or his soul is with the lord. My point to all of this is this....... There are people starving all over the world and people who have never received a message from God and he made time to warn me for two months about my father. He has even giving my mom her last time with her husband before he died. Talked to a child to relate a message to me. My goodness my hurt turned from hurt to amazed. I have come to realize the car wreck was just an instrument used into calling my father home. He was going to pass whether it was from the car wreck or his diabetes it was just his time. He will be missed but the reassuring I've received from my heavenly father is for greater and over came my broken hurt.  I've love hard and loved people before but now I'm going to love harder. Enjoy life and enjoy the company of my family. The little petty things in life the road rage and negative energy I've allowed in my life seem so minor now.

Thanks for reading with love,

Tiffney Francis